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Speculation of the unknown

Hiding gets you nowhere
Just unknown.
Secrets do not advance you
Just act as loud speakers.
Pain is not immediately painful.
However, we all learn to live with it.
Conformity is a release
Nevertheless, speculation is fear.
Judgement is acceptation
Likewise, love is a hindrance.

The complications of common day man are all man-made. We made the world to be as it is; yet, we find it unbearable to live with? What sort of people can create the consequences before the initial act is done? What sort of world seeks to des

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DenialI’m drunk from my own emotions. You gave me…handed me; Liberties I didn’t deserve. But perhaps demanded. You opened my eyes before I was ready. I lead you too far down the road of deceit as my response. I pretended it was all normal. Yet my emotional equal resides too close for comfort. I can’t help it. You chose me, So act like it again. Please, I don’t need it. (I need nothing.) I would like it. (I would like so many things.) Yet I’m distant. I must be. Just leave me be. Denial
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ConversationSeeing myself for the first time in so long has shaken me. You were my protector. You’re my negator. Relative? Oh yes. You…I need. You…I relied on. Here, with me.
We spoke and we didn’t. Emotion was involved, and yet it wasn’t. You left. I left you. Physically. Emotionally. Just come back. I need you. Don’t turn away. I don’t care if you have to. Just don’t. I can’t take it. You’re mine. You found me so long ago. So much anger, So much pain. So much love. Though Conversation
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DevotionI’m not alone, but I’m lonely. And ever so slightly intoxicated, And perhaps delusional. But I close my eyes and I see something I never thought I would. Devotion. To you.
Oh yes, you.
Painful as it may be, Teary as I am, I must admit all I think of is you. It’s just you. I hurt myself with this… Admitting how I feel, Understanding it and of what we have, Not ever knowing I would reach this conclusion. Facing my past, Fronting it, being called on it. Acceptance of this devotion. Facing what I thought I Devotion
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Ranting...Waiting...Beginning“No more tear stains on the pages of my diary…”
Who’s to say what’s to come or go; Who really knows how we feel? How do I recognise my passion from my pain? Repetition drives me crazy, on and on and on, in my head. Just as I think begging for mercy has worked, it continues, but in a new form… Often in a more subtle tone.
Decisions are made for the best. People can only do the best they can, use their experiences to their advantage. Judgement and hindsight go hand in hand; As do remorse and bitterness, Though the pair seem to have no valid existence in the real wor Ranting...Waiting...Beginning
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What to do...

Thu Dec 13, 2007, 5:11 AM

that is the question of the moment. My life as I've known it for however long (im guessing 3 to 4 years now), has come to an unexpected, not to mention unwanted, halt. I've been hurt (yes, I am aware its been long due to me for my own actions, but none the less hurtful), and now I'm left wondering this very question. "what now?" Something no one can answer. And so i continue down this fucking monotonous path of questions that dont have answers. Frustration and confusion are just so demeaning.

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Current Residence: Armidale, Australia
Personal Quote: "I'm masking my indifference with a veneer of detachment."

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